Friday, December 19, 2014

The Power of Words

Hey!  I wrote this essay for a college application, although I have actually wanted to write it for some time now...it's been a burden of mine that I wanted to share!  Enjoy!


The Power of Words


Words communicate ideas and messages. Personal opinions, ideas, and notions are commonly communicated through speech or in writing, filling the world with endless amounts of books. Books vary in their style and personality, which results in genres of writing. One book may tell of a young boy who scurried and scrounged the streets of London until he found a job, while another may unveil how a family changed because of a new spunky neighbor girl. Words are able to inspire a passionate teen and convict a searching soul; they can depict the sacrifice of one life for another, and spew malice and hatred. An expansive power -- it must be chosen how it is used because words powerfully impact human life.
“A picture is worth a thousand words,” is a well known saying, and rightly so. Words are a paintbrush. This paintbrush is used to display sight, sound, smell, and feeling to the viewer. The chosen words create a picture in the subject’s mind. It is the difference between walking home, skipping home, and trudging home; the difference between describing the ocean as “water as far as the eye can see,” and “water that leaps forward to touch the sand, only to frisk back to where it came from.” Each variation of walking home and each description of the ocean prompts a different image. Imagery is an influential usage of words, and the images depicted will often leave a greater effect than the words themselves.
The paintbrush effect allows us to remember specific events by their words. The words “I have a dream” trigger immediate thoughts of Martin Luther King Jr. and a national struggle with segregation. “And so even though we face the difficulties of today and tomorrow, I still have a dream. It is a dream deeply rooted in the American dream. I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: ‘We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal.’” This speech is a historical legacy of the struggle of racial segregation and the brave devotion of those who sought to change it. Small phrases also bring pictures to our minds “One small step for man; one giant leap for mankind” will ever be passed down in American history -- Neil Armstrong’s words as he stepped onto the moon. These quotes are nation changing and world changing words. Reading and re-reading them is similar to reliving the events that took place.
Words hold the power to convict. “For the word of God is living and active and sharper than any two-edged sword, and piercing as far as the division of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart,” Hebrews 4:12 (NASB).  Throughout the ages this power has been witnessed. True conviction is heart wrenching and life changing. Biblical conviction is an experience that turns hearts toward God. It is an experience of growth, and it is literally life changing. Thousands of witnesses testify to this fact.  In particular, Nicky Cruz’s transformation from inner city gang leader to Bible scholar and preacher shows God’s hand. Other stories of Hudson Taylor, Lillian Trasher, Jim Elliot, and thousands more recount conversion testimonies. Though the stories are similar in the sense that they are testimonies; they are all incredibly unique in their circumstances. This is just another point towards God orchestrating everything in our lives. His words are sharp enough to  pierce the hardest coldest heart. Hebrews 4:12 could not be truer.
Words are our personal sword. Whether used offensively or defensively they still contain an eternal power. As C. S. Lewis speculated “You have never talked to a mere mortal,” every spoken word will push the hearer closer to Heaven or closer to Hell. Too often the responsibility of this sword is not considered. Swords are tools, not toys; they are dangerous. Broken families, marriages, and friendships are examples of misused words, or lack thereof. Lack of communication is perhaps more dangerous than spoken words themselves. An unresolved discrepancy leaves room for speculation. The void that is left from unspoken words will be filled with assumptions by the person that has not heard. These assumptions easily lead to misconceptions and miscommunications between the people that they affect. The power of words is so great that it even affects unspoken words. Spoken words also contain unique qualities. A spoken word can never be redone, taken back, or made over. Every word will either encourage or tear down the person whose ears receive the message.
Although they are not rare, words are valuable. A force that has the power convict, inspire, and change the world should be coveted by everyone, but it does not have to be. God has given most of us the gift of speech and the ability to think. This gift is something that cannot be given away, stolen, or lost. This gift has value. A gift of such value should not be used lightly or carelessly; it should be used with intention and wielded with confidence. The intention of the words is to point people to Jesus Christ. As an example, Jesus taught how to show the world His love. This is greatly accomplished by words and actions. The confidence that words are wielded with also comes from God. Many times the Bible says to “Be strong and courageous,” and  “Fear not.” Joshua 1:9 (NASB) says, “ Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous! Do not tremble or be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” Ultimately strength and courage come from God. It is a Christian’s duty to use what he has to give glory to God.

There is a purpose for everything, especially written words.  Scrolls, clay tablets, books, and newspapers have told us of great heroes, scientific breakthroughs, and political scandals. These words have appeared in ballads, in scripts, in unknown country churches, and in king’s halls. We have inherited written legacies. These are legacies not only from the words that were spoken, but also from the message they hold. Their meaning, their effect, their passion is still evident. Their power is constantly wielded, constantly tearing down and building up. As Proverbs 18:21 states, “Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruit.” Words are powerful; it is time to use them wisely.

Friday, November 7, 2014

The Camo Man

I glanced at the road, then back to the papers in my hand. The next house would be right around the corner. My gaze darted back to the pavement and I saw him.
A man walked down the road towards myself and Alana. He wore black shorts and a camouflage shirt. His other attire included camouflage hiking boots, sunglasses with a pink camouflage chord, and a cane that was covered in camouflage duct tape.
I stared for a moment, taking in the scene, then looked at Alana for assurance. Please make him be nice. I silently prayed, some people are just unpredictable.
“What are you girls doing?” The man demanded.
I looked at Alana again and side-stepped closer to her. I could now see the handgun and daggar that were strapped to his side.
“Are you here for the campaign?” He said.
“Yes. We’re taking a survey.”
“Give me your survey.” Oh boy, I thought, You’re not even on our list. But we complied and told him how we were volunteers for a pro-life organization, then asked him if he would be voting pro-life.
“Well, I’m a libertarian. I’ve never been married. Don’t have any kids. So the life issue doesn’t really apply to me.”
What? This is so weird. “Oh, okay.” I wasn’t sure what else to say.  I was too busy eying the two knives that were strapped to the guy’s chest.  Three knives and a handgun.
“How old are you two anyway?” He said.
We were both seventeen.
“Well,” He said, “I’m sixty. But when I was in highschool I used to party and drink all the time. I would get these massive hangovers all the time. But then I started taking bee pollen.  For the longest time I was taking it with hot coffee, but then I read the directions and you’re supposed to take it with cold liquids. So I started taking this bee pollen and it took away my hangovers. I’ve never had a hangover since. You might just want to remember that for sometime.”
We nodded, afraid to disagree, and ready to move on.
“And you know,” He continued. “I used to be in law enforcement. I carried a gun then, and I still do now, but sometimes people still give me a hard time.  Just the other day a police officer stopped me and gave me a hard time, and I just wanted to tell him off, but I figured I had better not. But anyways, I’m off on my hike.” He pointed to his backpack and proceeded to inform us how it was good exercise for him to carry stuff around in a backpack…
Then he proceeded on his suburban neighborhood hike.
Okay, moving on. However, it took me and Alana quite a while to move on because it’s not every day you meet a law enforcement officer who tells you the secret to avoiding hangovers but never realizes that you should be in school.

Friday, October 3, 2014

FREEDOM GRANTED

FREEDOM GRANTED
Sheriff Mack stepped onto the platform and placed his hands on the podium.  The sea of protesters shouted and booed at the top of their voices.  Sheriff Mack scanned the crowd with a worn, defeated look and sighed.  If this was what the people wanted, he would grant it to them.  In his heart he knew that he would regret this decision, but he had no choice.  
I stood in the crowd with Eli staring down the man who held us in bondage.  He had no right to dictate our lives with - no right to force rules and laws upon us.  
I stood on tiptoe and watched as Mack shifted his stance.  Spite burned inside me.  This man is weak.  I hate him.  
“Afternoon, everyone,”  Sheriff began.  “I cannot stand alone against the people that I govern.  You have petitioned, demanded, and ultimately forced me to do this.”  His countenance fell and he seemed to be pleading with us.  “Just remember a few years from now that this is what you wanted.  You asked for this.  If it is freedom that you want, it is freedom you shall have.”
Eli and I cheered as loudly as we could.  Excitement welled inside me until I thought that my heart would burst.  I had been waiting my whole life for this.  
Sheriff lifted a stack of papers up to the microphone and set his face.  With a chiseled look of sorrow he began to rip the laws, procedures, and governing documents.  The sound of tearing paper resounded through the speakers, and all else quieted.  I grinned.  My heart was eager for the thrill of being free.  It was a moment of elation, but I hesitated before giving in to the feeling.  
When all the papers were ripped into tiny pieces, Mack let them flutter to the ground.  No one made a sound.  
Mack looked up, and as he leaned towards the microphone his eyes locked with mine.  “Freedom granted.”  He said.
A cheer rose from the crowd.  I grinned at Eli.  We were free.  I looked at my fellow citizens who were jumping, hollering, and crying.  Everyone was smiling.  So this is what it looks like, I thought.  My heart swelled with pride.
Eli tapped my shoulder, signaling it was time to leave.  I hooked my thumbs in my pockets and headed after him, grinning at every person I passed.
That’s when we heard it.  The first real scream.  I twisted back towards the stage.  Sheriff Mack slumped onto the floor.  Dead.  It was then that I saw the man behind him.  He held a knife - red to the hilt.  My heart leaped to my throat.  
“Freedom!”  The man screamed.  He leaped from the stage and into the  mass of people.  I heard another scream, then another.  I was frozen to my spot as terror.  Freedom?  My heart beat fast and I couldn’t think.  Something grabbed the back of my shirt.  I jumped and turned to face Eli.  
“We have to go, Mason.”  I didn’t hear any fear in his voice, but his eyes were scanning the crowd of people.  “Now.”
I turned around to see what he was looking at.  Eli yanked my arm around so that I faced him.  He met my gaze this time.  I could see the fear.  “Now, Mason.  We have to go.”  
I ran after Eli, the screams growing louder with our retreat.
Eli and I ran the whole way to our house.  It was really only an apartment above a restaurant, but it was the best home that I had ever had.  We barged through the door.  Leah jumped off the couch.  
“What’s going on?”  She demanded.   
“It happened.”  Eli said.  “We’ve been freed.”
Leah crosses her arms, hugging herself.  A tear slid down her cheek.  I had never seen her cry before and that tear scared me worse than the Sheriff’s body had.  Awful.  All of it.  Leah never cried.   I stepped towards the kitchen to get some food.  “Come on, guys.  We have to go.”  They both turned and stared at me.  
“We’re not going anywhere.”  Eli said.  “Especially you.”
“What?”  I began, but Eli cut me off.
“There’s no danger here, and even if there was we wouldn’t run from it.”  
I stared at him, confused.  “I saw the same thing you did.”  I said.  “It’s not safe here anymore.”  I looked back and forth between the two of them.  
“If you don’t want to stay here you could always go back to the orphanage.”  Leah spit the words at me.
My eyes widened.  I turned to Eli.  “No.  You wouldn’t.”
He didn’t say anything.  Neither did Leah.  
“You’re serious?”  I said.  Eli looked at the floor.  “It’s fine.”  I said.  My words were soft.  “I’ll stay.”  But I  didn’t feel entirely safe with my two best friends anymore.  
A shriek from the restaurant reached our ears.  I looked at Eli and raised my eyebrows in a questioning look.  I could hear the smashing of plates and the overturning of tables.  
“Bar the door, Mason.”  Eli said.  Again, there was no fear in his voice.  How could he not be afraid?  I was afraid; my heart beat so quickly that I was sure anyone could hear it.  I bounded over to the door and secured the dead bolt.  I was about to set our oak beam in place, but there was a smash.  Glass showered around me, and that was the last thing I remembered.


I opened my eyes and saw shards of glass gleaming in the sun.  I felt stiff and didn’t want to move.  I exhaled and was about to call for Leah, but the sound of voices stopped me.  
“I’ll give you five hundred.”  It was a man’s voice, cold, and stern.  I had never heard it before.
“No.”  This was Eli.  “I need more.  Eight hundred.”
I frowned.  What in the world are they talking about?  I pushed myself up into a sitting position, avoiding glass.  Even with my best efforts I pieces still get imbedded in my hands and little trickles of blood ran down my palms.  I winced, then looked towards where the voices had come from.  A young man, probably the same age as Eli handed Eli a wad of bills.  As the two grasped hands to seal the deal Eli saw me and met my gaze.  He seemed hard.  I knew he was strong and could take anything that was dealt him, but this was a cold hardness that I had never seen before.  
The deal was sealed - whatever it was.  Eli looked my way again.  “Stand up, Mason.”  
I obeyed, but grabbed the windowsill to steady myself.  I shrugged my jean jacket tighter onto my shoulders and shifted my gaze between Eli and Leah.  The stranger approached me.  He was just a little taller than Eli and strong too.  His blonde hair reminded me of one of the boys at the orphanage, and his brown eyes pierced into me.  When he was right in front of me he stopped and grabbed my forearm.  
“Hey.” I said and shook him off, but he grabbed my arm again.  I tensed.  Man, what was this guy up to?  “Eli, tell this creep to cut it out.”
“Mason, stop.  Trust me.”  Eli said.  I froze.  The stranger’s grip tightened and pushed me towards the door.
My eyes widened as I stared at Eli and Leah.  “What’s going on?”  I whispered.   Leah brought a hand up over her mouth and turned away.  I opened my mouth to say something, anything, but there were no words to say.
“Be strong, Mason.”  Eli said.  
The stranger gave me a big shove.  Then I was out the apartment door and Eli was gone from my sight.  I was numb.  I understood what had happened now.  Sold.  I was property.  My friends had just sold me.  As I climbed into the stranger’s car I played through what had just happened.  As I remembered, one word rang through my mind.  Freedom.

My back pressed into the wall of the small room I was in.  I stared at my hands.  They were covered in blood and looked a lot worse than they actually were.  I kept staring at them and feeling the pain from where I had dug out embedded pieces of glass because this pain was so nothing compared to the ache in my heart.  

Even though I watched my hands I was seeing Eli cheering for freedom and telling me we were safe.  Eli threatening to send me back to the orphanage.  Eli selling me.  I couldn’t wrap my mind around it.  Eli was like the older brother I never had, and Leah was like a sister.  Eli and Leah were the same age, and when they got old enough they left the orphanage.  I ran away after them.  It was against the law, but I didn’t care.  I knew no one wanted me.  If someone had I would have been adopted long ago.  So I ran away after Eli and Leah because they cared about me.  We all stuck up for each other and helped each other out.  We were all strong and tough, but we needed each other and liked each other just the same.  
All these thoughts hit me like a slap to the face.  It wasn’t true anymore.  They betrayed me.  They lied to me.  They sold me.  They, they… the list went on and on, and my heart went through a cycle of numbness, fear, anger, sorrow, and hate.  And I stared at my hands.
The door creaked open.  It was the stranger, but this time he was dressed in black from head to toe, even a mask on his face.  I stood up, crossed my arms, and frowned; partially because I was scared, partially because I was frustrated.  He tossed me a ski mask.  
“What do you want?”  I demanded.
“Your help.”  
“But you bought me.”
“Don’t be so offended.  I needed your help, and Eli would have it no other way.”
I pondered that for a moment.  “Why do you need me, and what for?”
“I can’t answer either of those, but the answers will come.”  
“Why should I help you?”  
He looked me straight in the eye.  “Because your life may depend on it.”
My instructions were: “follow close, but not too close; groups will call attention.  Don’t draw attention to yourself.”  I was armed with a knife and  handgun, but was under strict instructions to use them only if it was absolutely necessary.  The stranger had made it very obvious to me that he was armed as well.
I followed my comrade mimicking his steps.  We stayed within the shadows, running down alleys, and pausing at corners.  People milled around in a frantic state.  Some with a crazed dangerous look, and others that who’s eyes shifted with with a fearful trust.  I couldn’t help myself from feeling that I may be killed at any time.  The only thing that comforted me was the gun strapped to my leg.
After about a half an hour of running things started to be too familiar.  There was the baker’s shop with the chipped red bricks and the fence that was overgrown with ivy.  My stomach began to churn.  He was leading me to the orphanage.
We skirted the orphanage, staying in the shadows and continuing towards the forest.  When I reached the dark shadows of the woods I stopped and soaked in the relief that this stranger was not going to force me through the orphanage gates.  Instead, I was beckoned farther into the woods.  I trudged after the stranger, ever suspicious of what he may try to do.     


The lights were all out, leaving the orphanage looking deserted.  Haunted even.  My heart was thumping loudly.  I tried to take long even breaths so that the stranger guy wouldn’t hear it.  When that didn’t work I stayed back far enough that he surely couldn’t hear - also so that he couldn’t force me through the gates.  No one could ever make me go back to that place.  
Just when I reached the peak of my anxiousness, we reached the gates.  More like what used to be the gates.  Instead of being closed, locked, and secured as I remembered them they were bent and flung wide open.  I stared.
“They were freed.”  The stranger stood beside me.
I looked at him and raised my eyebrows.  He didn’t do anything; I suppose he couldn’t see my face through the mask I was wearing.  I had mixed feelings.  I hated the orphanage, but it did have a purpose.  I tried to find a voice for my thoughts, but before I did it was time to move on.  We walked on past the main gate and around the first corner.  The stranger headed into the woods.  I stood in the shadows until he beckoned me further.  All that was back there was an old abandoned well.  What was he doing?  It didn’t matter really - evidently my life was dependent on obedience.  
After struggling through numerous tangles of ferns, I found myself standing next to my strange friend.  Before us a stone well came out of the ground.  I peered down into the blackness thinking how I would hate to fall down there.  As I straightened up there was a blur of darkness.  I inhaled sharply as my friend plummeted into the well.  
I nearly screamed, but a voice stopped me.  “Mason, come on down!”
I was dumbfounded, my mind seemed frozen.  “How?”
“Just jump.  You’ll land on a platform.”  
I was wary.  “Are you sure it’s safe?”  
“I have never known you to be the safety 1st type, Mason.”
“Maybe I would be more daring if I knew who you were.  It might help me trust you.”  A hint of sarcasm graced my words.
“Seems like you’ve got some of your sass back.”  
I didn’t want to be teased.  “Just tell me who you are.”
“You really don’t know?”  A laugh echoed up from the stone walls.  “I thought you’d never forget.  And here I am about to show you my biggest secret.”
The orphanage.  The secrets.  Not forgetting.  There was only one person that this could be - Braellen West.  My eyes widened and I leaped down into the well.  
The impact of landing sent me to my knees, but I jumped to my feet and faced the silhouette before me.  “Braille?”  
“Yeah, it’s me.”  His voice seemed deflated.
My mind was spinning.  “Why am I here?”  All I could think of was all the times that Braille had gotten me into trouble.  We were the troublemakers of the orphanage - “partners in crime” that helped each other and turned on each other - whichever was convenient at the time.  He had me here because he needed me here, and that made me nervous.
“I’ll show you.”  Braille grabbed my upper arm and pulled me along through a tunnel.  I couldn’t see a thing and had no idea where we were going.  My stomach churned with butterflies of excitement.  Braellen never involved himself in small matters.  
The tunnel continued underground for what I figured was 25 yards.  It was darker that what I had thought was possible.  Damp earth squished under my boots as I plodded after Braellen.  My mind still raced, trying to think of what might be ahead.
We stopped, and hinges creaked as Braellen pushed open a door.  He flicked a flashlight on.  As he swung the light around I glimpsed a small room, a dresser, and a low table.  Braellen bent over the table, shining the light on a piece of paper.  It was silent for a moment, then there was a burst from Braellen.  “No!  It wasn’t supposed to come to this!”
I glanced around the room, searching for anything that could be out of place.  “What’s going on?” I asked.  I could feel some of my anxiousness returning.
Braellen heaved over the table, his palms bearing weight on the table top.  “I came here for my orders.  He told me to become sheriff! Mason,” He stood and faced me.  “I can’t become sheriff!  He can’t be dead!”
I was clueless to what he was talking about, but I could still hear the panic in his voice.  Braellen was about to go over the edge.  I went with my instinct, landing a solid punch to his gut.  “Braille, keep it together!”
He stopped rambling and stared down at me.  “You’ve gotten stronger since the last time you did that.” He rubbed his stomach.  “Man, Mace, you didn’t have to hit me that hard.”
“I’ll remember that for next time.  Now start at the beginning and tell me what you are pulling me into.”  I raised my eyebrows and gave him my most bossy look.  
“You’re not a very convincing boss, Mace.  Don’t even try.  I’ll tell you anyway though; you deserve to know.”
“It all started when I was small and first came to this place - the orphanage.  I was starving, so I stole food from the pantry, but I was no good at it at the time, so I got caught 50% of the time.  Those times that I was caught, they put me in the basement just like they did for everyone else who broke the rules.  One day I was down there by myself, huddled in a corner when I heard a noise.  It came from behind the wall.  I began nosing around pushing and pulling at the bricks, sure that I would find a secret room or passage.  I was right.  A group of bricks gave way and I stepped into this room.  It was these same things in it - a dresser and table.  I, being curious and excited about my find, opened one of the dresser drawers.  I never thought in a million years that I’d find what I did.  Money.  The whole dresser was full of money.  I took a few dollars, then discovered the tinnel.  I had found my freedom!  So I makde my way to town and used the money to buy food.  I was the happiest kid alive until I ran into the sheriff.  He got awfully suspicious of an orphan that had money and demanded that I show him exactly where I found it.  I refused until he made a deal with me.  I would show him, and he would guarantee me no trouble from anyone.  We shook on it, then I brought him to the well.  when we got there, he told me.  “Braille, this is my hiding spot.  You found my secret stash back there .”  He swore me to secrecy that day - and I’ve kept that secret until now.  But we also made a bargain cuz we liked each other’s company, saying that I could use some money and the tunnel and go visit the sheriff.  I would have run away 100 times if it weren’t for that bargain.  After that day I would get in trouble on purpose, always when no one else was in the basement so that I could go see the sheriff.  We  got to be great friends and trusted each other like what I figure a father and son would.  Sheriff trusted me with a plan.  A plan that he put into action this morning.  You and I are part of that plan, but his...death was not.  Not part of my plan, but obviously he knew that it was a valid possibility.  But now he says to carry on - carry on without him!”
I couldn’t help but question, “carry on with what?”
Braille’s eyes met mine with a passionate fury.  “The recapture of Liberty.”
It was getting stuffy in that little room, so I pulled my hoodie off.  I took a deep breath.  I was so much more comfortable now, but confused when I found Braille staring at me.  He had a bewildered expression on his face.  
I glanced around trying to escape the awkwardness.  “What’s wrong?”  In answer he shone the flashlight on my arm.
Just below my shoulder I have a birthmark.  It’s a strange marking.  I have never liked it, so I usually keep it covered, but in the tank top I was wearing it was completely visible.
Braille was staring at it.  He was so intense, so focused, that it scared me.  Braille jerked the flashlight beam to the floor.  “Put your sweatshirt back on.  You can’t help me with this mission.”
What?  I couldn’t move.  I stared.  
He jabbed a finger at me.  “Why didn’t you tell me this before.”
Tell him what?  I opened my mouth to defend myself, but stopped.  Braille was dead serious and urgent.  He grabbed my hoodie and thrust it at my chest.  His eyes were wide, and he looked at me like he didn’t know me.
“How could I not have known?”
I didn’t even have time to put my hoodie on before Braille turned me around and marched me back out of the tunnel.
I was too dumbfounded to say anything.  So I let Braellen march me right out of that hiding place and back towards the city.


Saturday, September 27, 2014

Letters To: Peter (pt.1)

Dear Peter,
I am tired. Tired of school. Tired of being perfect for everybody. Tired of everything. Tired of life. You don't know what it's like. Here there are standards, expectations, deadlines. Here people judge your appearance. Sometimes these things are good, they give responsibility and ownership. I had looked forward to this day – looked forward to the future. To growing up. Now I am not so sure. I'm hesitating. There are so many decisions. Already I can't decide, how could I survive any more choices? Still, I know you don't understand. You don't need to; you have the easy way out. Why can't I be like you? Try to understand. There is responsibility; you have things to do and take care of. There are decisions about everything; you have to make choices about school studies, sports, friends, college, future...! There are standards; people expect certain things from you appearance, attitude, grades. This may not sound like a whole lot to you, but it is quite a lot. After a while you can feel the pressure of all this weighing you down. No matter how hard you try, it seems your spirits get pulled down where their previous state is irretrievable. My spirits are down right now. Please, please help me come back up. Please take me to Neverland.
Sincerely waiting,
H. C.

Thursday, June 12, 2014

Live to Me a Poem

Live to Me a Poem

Speak to me in color
Not in black and white
I want to hear new things
I want to see new sights

Spark me with your magic
Troublesome and true
It swirls me with meaning
And gives life a new hue

Love me with a courage
That I cannot deny
For great amounts are needed
To win one such as I

Live to me a poem
With a lively happy beat
Containing color, love, and magic
Grace my life with something sweet

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Dreams Come True

I dreamed too big
I fell too far
Used all my strength to reach afar.

My heart became heavy,
And dark, and grey,
I forgot my dreams, but remembered anyway.

I always remembered
What I aspired to be
How I’d make a difference for the world to see.

The world would change
And remember my name
For the greatness I showed - not for the gain.

I think to myself
How that’s fairytale stuff
The legacy I leave won’t be worth much.

My heart sinks lower
It whispers true -
“You can’t let that happen; it just wouldn’t be you.”

I think of my family
My mom and dad
Will being their failure child really be that bad?

I have no love
I have no hate
Just a frozen heart that I have made.

I have to be perfect
I have to be strong
Tears are for wimps.  I have to press on.

I think of the Bible
And it’s words so true
The words bring no comfort like they used to.

I look back on these lies
And know that they are
Deception and trickery gone too far.

I have to succeed.
And I will too
If it takes me forever, my dreams will come true.

~Harper